Sun, Sand, Stars and Dreams

The chronicles of a misfit Indian teen


December 2013


And so 2013 comes to a close as well.
This year hasn’t been one of the best for me, as those who’ve read my past posts would have known. I hope it wasn’t bad for you guys though.
The new year has the potential to be either the best or the worst year of my life. It all comes down to that one thing, fate or destiny.
Well, what has to happen, will happen, and instead of dwelling on the past or worrying about the future, it is best to live in the present.
That’s what I plan to do from now on.
I guess I can call it a New Year Resolution. Although I don’t really take resolutions in a new year. Because if you want to change something about yourself, you’ve got to do it NOW and not wait till the year ends.

So, instead of thinking about unhappy things, it is better to count my blessings.

Some of the best things that happened to me in 2013:
1. My best friends: Gosh! You guys are amazing! I don’t know what I’d do without you all. You taught me what it means to live, to laugh, to enjoy and also to be serious at times. I swear I’ll miss you terribly when we part in April/May (after graduation), but I hope we keep in touch till we are ninety. 😛

2. My class and the teachers: I feel really blessed to have studied in such a wonderful class. The students and the teachers were absolutely brilliant.
Especially, that one teacher. Yes, I know that you hated me and that the feeling was mutual. Then, I don’t know what changed after the second term. I think you stopped hating me and that’s when I saw you for what you really are. That’s this amazing, bold, smart and brave woman, who is not afraid to stand up for anything. I admire you, a lot, and I think I’ll actually miss you, ma’am. It’s just that I’m still a bit too scared to tell you that.

3. Two trips which changed my perception of the whole world;
a. The field trip sponsored by the school.
b. An inter-school quiz held in another city and the subsequent road trip to and from the location with my teammates.
The quiz was held by the rival school who took out their on us, just because we had defeated them in a previous quiz. They asked obvious questions to their team and obscure ones to us, just so that we could be eliminated from the competition.
But, even if the quiz was bad, that trip taught me a lot. How we could overcome obstacles, and how a team supports each other.

4. The RCS essay competition:
For giving me a silver award and boosting my confidence.

5. This blog:
Even though I haven’t been very active, I have to say that I love you all (in the most innocent, platonic way ever). Because it gave me the confidence to be myself and believe in myself.

Things 2013 taught me
1. If you think you are good at something, there is always someone better than you.
2. Even if you are the best, someone else might end up winning, just because they had influence or support.
3. Be yourself. No matter what anyone else says, there is no one better than yourself.

On another note, this blog hit a 100 followers and 200 likes! And I’m very happy about it! 😀

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Anyway, I’d like to wish you all a hearty Season’s Greetings and hope that the new year blooms bright, fresh, happy and prosperous.
And with that, you can all go back to whatever you were doing or get ready to celebrate New Years’ Eve, while I go back to my books. (Not to start a pity party, but I just realised that I’ve never been to a party, a proper kind, not the functions where you tag along with your parents. But, I haven’t been to a wedding or a funeral either. So I’m not one to talk.)


Mid-yearly exams, academics, and other disappointments.

I’m back! Yay! So, I was able to keep up my promise.
To all those amazing people who followed my blog and commented on the posts, even during my long absence, you are all totally AWESOME! I promise I’ll reply back to your comments really soon.
Anyway, I’m back for the month of December at least.
November wasn’t a really good month for me.
Most of the month was spent in the mid-yearly exams.
Then came the part where I got the grades (or rather marks) of those exams.
My chemistry paper was a total disaster and I am happy to say that I actually passed. Although barely. If I’d got 10 marks less, I would have failed. That’s something I really couldn’t wrap my head around.
I had been this over-achieving, straight-A, perfect student. I could even remember the time I fought with my English teacher to give me half a mark more, so I would get above 95 in all subjects. That was in Year 10.
But, this year, the year where I have to attempt the most important exam in the life of an Indian school girl, the class XII boards, everything seems to be the opposite. I barely passed chemistry, got in late 70s in physics and didn’t cross 90% in either math or English, two of my favourite subjects.
We-ell, my marks in Home Ed were quite good, but my overall percentage is quite less.
But the sciences were blergh. Luckily, if all goes well, I’ll only have to suffer the sciences for another four months maximum.

My class teacher seemed quite disappointed in me. She told me that I could have done better, if not for my laziness and carelessness.
Although my parents didn’t exactly say anything till now, they are disappointed in me. I know that they think I’m a sort of failure in many ways, the only thing I had a bit was academics and now even that seems to have forsaken me.

Tomorrow is the day where I will have to go to school with my parents and they will confer with the teachers and my answer sheets along with my progress report will be given to them.
I really hope I have the emotional strength to withstand the day.

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