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nerd-glassesSince being a nerd has become cool I don’t like it any more. Big glasses are no longer the indicator of a visual impairment caused by too much reading, and pasty skin is less likely caused by long hours spent in libraries, archives or labs. It’s more likely the result of an overpriced holiday in Finland and cleverly applied make-up.

It is now socially acceptable, even hip, to be seen sitting by yourself in a murky café reading Camus. It is even more so if you’re wearing a baggy jumper you found in a charity shop, while frantically scribbling notes into your Moleskin notebook or are indeed staring into your MacBook. Not even questionable personal hygiene or unkempt hair are a safe indicator that the person next to you is a borderline genius.

On the other hand, real nerds are now heading to the gym to fight the pen pusher’s…

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Intoxicating desire (Short and spooky, 100 words or less)

She hugged him tightly. Her warmth was intoxicating. She kissed him full on the lips. He closed his eyes in bliss. He opened them to find her sparkling green eyes twinkling mischievously. He tried to break away, but she had wrapped herself around him. He felt himself choking, but realized that she had no intention of letting go. He was deprived of oxygen and finally stopped breathing. He did not know that he was far from being the first of her victims.

The A-Z Book Survey

I found this Survey on Attempting Reality’s blog and then on Underwaterraven’s as well. So, I thought of attempting it as well.

In the words of Attempting Reality (who’s totally awesome an if you haven’t already, do check her blog out), “It’s the A-Z Book Survey and I am about 90% sure that this tag was invented for me and the other million-or-so 17 year old girls who love reading, writing, chocolate and dogs.” (Psst! I think it’s totally true!)

Without further ado, here goes.

Author you’ve read the most books from:
If I could count books I read when I was younger, then it is Enid Blyton. I’d read all the books in the Famous Five series, the Secret Seven series, the St. Clare series, the Mallory tower series, and quite a few assorted books by her.

Best Sequel Ever:
The Harry Potter series. The only series in my opinion that became better as it progressed.

Currently Reading:
A good Indian wife, by Anne Cherian

Drink of Choice While Reading:
I don’t usually drink anything while reading, because it distracts me a bit.

E-reader or Physical Book?
I don’t have an e-reader, unless you count an iPhone to be one.
Although, in my iPhone, I do get to read books which aren’t available locally, nothing could beat the feel of having a real, physical, papery book in my hand. (One which has the true book-ish smell.)

Fictional Character You Probably Would Have Actually Dated In High School: Um, Etienne St. Claire from ‘Anna and the French kiss’, or Zain Altaf Khan from ‘Battle for Bittora’ or even Sirius Black from ‘Harry Potter’, if it wasn’t for the huge age difference.
(Yes. I seem to have an attraction for handsome, dark-haired males with a bad childhood.)

Glad You Gave This Book A Chance:
The Secret Keeper, by Kate Morton

Hidden Gem Book:
The Secret Keeper, by Kate Morton. (Again)

Important Moment in your Reading Life:
When I read my first Famous Five novel in second grade, it was my first book which crossed 200 pages and it took me around a month to read. But, I read the same book over and over countless times and improved my reading speed considerably.

Just Finished:
One Amazing Thing by Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni

Kinds of Books You (generally) Won’t Read:
Werewolf-Vampire romances, fantasy.

Longest Book You’ve Read:
Will my Physics reference book count? It has nearly 1600 pages and I’ve read it entirely.
If not, I’m not exactly sure, maybe Eragon, or Ootp.

Major book hangover because of:
Harry Potter.
And more recently, “Allegiant”, the third book of the ‘Divergent’ series.

Number of Bookcases You Own:
One thin and tall one in the house where I’m living currently and two long broad ones in my house back in India. (Although only one of it is fully filled.)

One Book You Have Read Multiple Times:
I don’t usually read a book over again, ’cause it kind of ruins the thrill of finishing it, for me.
But, the Famous Five book, “Five get into trouble”, is one book that I’ve read over and over for almost a year, because I didn’t have any other book which I considered good enough, in second grade.

Preferred Place To Read:
Somewhere in my room, sometimes dangling from my bed even. 😛

Quote that inspires you/gives you all the feels from a book you’ve read:

“As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.”
― The Fault in Our Stars

Reading Regret:
Reading the ‘Twilight’ series (the first two books at least), and actually fangirling over it for almost a month. (Thank god I came to my senses after that!)

Series You Started And Need To Finish (all books are out in series):
The Lord of the Rings.

Three of your All-Time Favorite Books:
PoA, The Book Thief, The secret Keeper

Unapologetic Fangirl For:
Harry Potter. Legal thrillers, Jeffrey Archer’s books, murder mysteries.
Also, happy, light reads. The occasional chick-lit. (Occasional? Pfft. Whom am I kidding?)

Very Excited For This Release More Than All The Others:
Well, I was excited for Allegiant’s release, but now that it has already been released, I don’t exactly know what books are coming out now.

Worst Bookish Habit:
Starting a book and then abandoning it midway.

X Marks The Spot: Start at the top left of your shelf and pick the 27th book:
To Kill a Mockingbird, by Harper Lee.

Your latest book purchase:
Wolf Hall by Hilary Mantel and The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand, way back in July, although I haven’t read either till now. (Note: ‘Purchase’ being the key word.)

ZZZ-snatcher book (last book that kept you up WAY late):
Inferno, by Dan Brown.

So, there!
Until next time,
Anu. 🙂

P. S. If anyone out there is still reading my blog, I’m sorry to say that I won’t be posting anything new for another two weeks. I have my mid-yearly exams coming up (from tomorrow, actually) and I really need to study. But, I’ll be back in December!

I need somewhere to vent. That why I’m writing this. For all purposes, this is a rant.
I don’t know. I’m really angry now. My dad is acting more and more irrational each day. There’s a limit to criticise anyone or anything. After that, they’ll reach a breaking point, right?
Yes, so I love my Dad and everything. But, he never values anything I say or do. Everything I achieve is nothing for him. And today he kept telling me that my dreams are a just dreams and to be more practical. He scolded me, saying I’m too selfish, and that I never help anyone. Then, he told me that I’m self-obsessed and that I hate everyone of my cousins and family. (That’s because they hate me! Not the other way round!)
He called me ‘an anti-social brat’ who doesn’t know to be friendly. He doesn’t know my story, the one I kept to myself, and so he has no right to judge me.
Sure, I get it, he has his own problems. A bad childhood, in which he formed a sort of God-like devotion to his elder brother, who was his kind of saviour. And now, health problems and all.
But, there’s a limit, right?
And it’s like he has a kind of ego complex. My parents are always fighting. I mean, if they just can’t adjust, can’t they just divorce?
Why should they keep living together if they only hate each other?
It gets maddening at times and I keep longing for my senior year to end, so then I can go to college, leaving all this behind.
My mum told me that, once my senior year ends, she’s going to go and pursue her dream of joining LSE as a doctoral student, if they admit her, that is. It was her life-long dream, and one which she abandoned for mine and my dad’s sake, so we could all live in the same place.
My mum’s not exactly helping either. She keeps complaining about my Dad and tells all her problems to me. I can’t exactly blame her, because she has no other family left. No one who cares, that is.
But, all this sometimes becomes too much for a 16-year old girl, who has no siblings, no nice cousins and classmates who think of me as some sort of happy, cheerful girl, who lives a perfect life on a cloud of cotton candy. That’s just it, they don’t know the real me, just a fake, happy persona that I assume.
I’m kind of afraid to actually confide in those three people, whom I consider my best friends, not because I don’t trust them, but because I’m scared they’ll judge me. But, I might, someday. About everything, including my dark past. Someday, when I’m more confident.
I needed to vent to someplace, where no one will judge me. That’s why I wrote this post.


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Because being happy is the best thing one can wish for.

That moment when you do/see something awesome, is something to cherish forever.

If only everyone could accept others as they are, the world could be a better place.

The hope that tomorrow will definitely be better, is what makes us continue living.

To believe in oneself, to believe that ‘I can do it!’

What would life be, if there wasn’t love?


This post was inspired by The Daily Post’s Prompt


Reasons I love September:

#1 Holidays, holidays and holidays:
I’m not kidding, in the first week, I got a three-day weekend, and then the next week, a four-day weekend, and now another four-day weekend.

#2 Festivals and celebrations:
The first week, we got to celebrate Teacher’s day at school. And then, it was Onam, a South Indian festival. This week, it is the National Day of the country where I live.

#3 School after a loooong summer vacation:
Nope, before you all start getting ideas, I’m not a school-obsessed nerd. I’m a nerd alright. But, not exactly obsessed with school. Oh well, whatever.
It was just that my vacation was like the worst thing ever. Having to stay almost one-and-a-half-months with relatives who dislike you (Yes! The feeling is mutual.) is beyond annoying.
So, I was rather happy when school reopened, because that meant being back with my awesomesauce friends and reverting back to my old, cheerful self again. (Instead of that depressed, anti-social creature that I turn into, when I’m around my relatives in India.)

#4 Winning an international writing competition:
Yes! I did. Not the first prize or anything, but I got featured on the Silver list. I’m rather proud of that, especially since it was one of the oldest writing competitions, held by The Royal Commonwealth Society, London in collaboration with the University of Cambridge, and it was my first attempt at sending some of my writing to a contest which expected such high standards.

#5 My mother’s birthday:
It was my mum’s 34th birthday (she’ll be happy that I made her 20 years younger! :P) on the 18th. That meant that I had a large chocolate cake, from one of the best bakeries in the city, all for myself. Well, excluding that little part which in had to give me friends and my mum herself. My dad is diabetic and hates chocolate, so I got to stuff my face with excess chocolate, which was just blissful heaven for a chocoholic like me.

So, that was why I ought to have loved September.
But, this was one of the worst months. Ever.
My relationship with my parents is on an all-time low. All we ever seem to do in the house is fight.
My dream of my future seems to be drifting further and further away.
My grades are not as good as I hoped.
I have lost all interest in anything related to my coursework and all I ever do, is read novels.
My best friend is depressed and I have no idea how to get her out of it and I seem to be sinking into depression myself.

Midnight musings

Do ignore the random, unimaginative (Is even a word like that? I don’t even remember anymore.) title. At least there is some alliteration at play there, though it isn’t a poem. It is almost midnight here, and my intelligence isn’t exactly at its best right now.
Tomorrow is the start of yet another term at school for me and going back to school after a long (and definitely hot!) summer vacation is not a very pleasing prospect.
No! Don’t get me wrong. I love school. Okay, not everything at school, but I love my little group of friends and my small class.
It is not like I have a school-o-phobia (is that even a word? But, yeah, you get the drift)
But, school, after lazing around at home for less than month, yet after more than a month of dreadful time in my home country. 😦
Okay. I think I should just go now. Seeing that I’m unable to form coherent sentences.
But, then, this post would have no purpose.

What makes me shy away from the prospect of school, is something much simpler.
I don’t want school to end.
I know how the term literally flys by (especially after the summer vacation) and before I know it, it will be time for the finals.
And then college.
That’s what is more scary.
All those thoughts. Will I get into a good university? Or rather the university I wanted? Is my choice of a major right? What lays ahead now?
I realised that I don’t really want school to end. But, like all good things, it has to come to an end too.
And savour it the best while it lasts.

I don’t need to worry about all that right now.
I still have 7 months of school left. (though almost 4 months will be normal holidays or study holidays or exams, so it can’t exactly be counted)
Still, I have 3 months of proper school and I’ll make the most of it.
This is more of a confirmation to myself.
I don’t even know what to make of it anymore or even know what all this is about.

Oh damn! It is past midnight. So, school starts in less than 7 hours! I should probably get going. I have to catch at least a few hours of sleep tonight. I don’t want to begin this term running on coffee.
I’m sorry if none of this made sense. I’ve no idea why I’m actually going to press the ‘publish’ button now.

The Versatile Blogger Award

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I got my third award on this blog! Hip hip hurray!
Okay, that was a bit too much, I think.
But, I’m honestly happy and excited about it. And happiness is something I really need these days.

So, anyway, Beth , the owner of two awesome blogs, teenrants and collegerants, has nominated me for the Versatile Blogger Award.

In receiving a blogging award there are certain rules you must comply by:

1. Post the award to the blog.
2. Tell your readers that you have received the award.
3. Thank the person who has nominated you.
4. Nominate 7 people who you think are deserving of the award.
5. Send a comment to the 7 people you nominated.
6. List 5 facts about you.

So, number 6 on the list. Five facts about me.
This is something about which I have no idea what to write.
Anyway, I tried.
1. I’m a teen girl from India, living in the Middle East. (I’m pretty sure you would have known this if you’ve read my blog, at all.)
2. I am an only child.
3. Creepy, crawly insects are my mortal enemies.
4. I get addicted to fandoms rather frequently. My current, most latest ones are The Mortal Instruments series, The Divergent series and BBC’s Sherlock. (Yes, I know, I’m like the last person on Earth to get addicted to the Sherlock fandom.)
5. My biggest pet peeve is when people fold the edges of my books. (I’m rather protective of my books. They are my babies!!)

My nominations are:
1. The mostly confused teenager
2. Attempting reality
3. Nine Nine the Greatest
4. Littlemissnerdybookworm
5. FloodedRoses
6. Curry for your thoughts
7. George

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